YES

Yes I live in a world of my own illusions,
And I'm scared if they'd be destroyed,
Because they helped me get through this phase,
Where I could crumble between a million lies.

I kept saying 'Yes',

To maintain each bond.
Didn't realize I had lost my freedom,
And just to keep them happy to the best of my ability I don't know when I destroyed myself and beyond.

I feel trapped, 

And I feel it everywhere I go.
I seem to have lost that precious time living in fear,

I can't seem to let go.

I've lost that feeling and there is just fear,
I have everything but I don't have me.

Though I'd be nobody's business when I die,

I fear people I love will judge me.

This world is big with lots of people,

And my experiences might just be another story someone would read.

But then they'd know about the regrets I bear,
And my wish to create a healing creed.